It happened. The unthinkable happened. After 21 years of marriage my husband had an affair. He chose the slut and threw aside his wife, his 5 children, his job, his church. Everything he knew went out the window for her. Employer, family, church and yes even the law have turned against him. But this is not about his journey, it is all about mine. I have dealt with a lot of pain this past year. 2012 sucked!
I open the window to a new day, a new life of rediscovery. Please do not misunderstand. I do not want to change who I am. I like me. What I need to do is discover who I am now. I am a jumble of all my experiences. I think I know the woman I want to become but it will take time and I feel like I have to start over again. I am a woman of many different roles to play. I am a mix of the young confident and yes sometimes arrogant girl who got married just before her 20th birthday; a strong mother who is raising 5 children with a neglectful husband/father; a beautiful and sexy woman who once turned many heads (and yes I plan to again); a courageous athlete; a creative and romantic thinker; an intelligent woman; a practical woman; a faithful woman; a hopeful woman.
I am not sure there will be anyone out there who will follow my journey but I feel more accountable to continue journaling my own journey if I post it here. I only ask you to be patient with me as I trudge through the muck in my life to become the woman I want to be.
Part of this journey is loosing the 45lbs I have gained in 2012.
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